The Incredible Shrinking Woman

Today is a sad day here at our house.  We had to get rid of our dog today.  He bit my son today, puncturing his skin and scaring him to death.  We tried to surrender him to many no-kill shelters but no one would take him because of him biting.  So we sent him to the humane society, we had to lie and not say that he bit.  He is very kind so we don’t know where his biting came from.  It was a sad day here, but our kids come first so we had to make the decision to get rid of the dog.  I know some of you are huge animal lovers, I am too, so don’t get me wrong, but when a dog bites a child its a serious thing and I don’t think a dog should be given a 2nd chance in that environment.  Hopefully some other family will adopt him and see how sweet he can be, just maybe someone with out children. 

So its a sad day, my son didn’t go to school today, he has a huge HUGE bruise and teeth marks on his upper thigh.  I felt so sorry for him, it was his dog and he loved him, but he wanted us to get rid of him because he was scared of him.  But after that I was scared of him also, because dogs are still animals, animals are still wild and something can happen.  So we are going to take a well deserved break from animals and see what we want to do in another few months.

I feel like the black cloud is still over our house today.  I pray for some peace here, we all need it tremendously.

So my day started good, I walked the dog long this morning, ate good up until lunch then the emotional eating happened, and it ended with pizza for dinner and a blizzard.  Oh well, I guess thats my drug of choice, but I get my fix in a lot smaller doses than before.  Back to my normal routine in the morning, and also I will rid our house of the dog things, sad day.

So we bought an elliptical machine this past weekend.  We are paying so much for gym memberships and I thought I would just buy one for us.  I found one in craigslist that was a few years old, I talked her down to $150!!  So I’m so excited that I can workout on my favorite exercise machine anytime I want to and I don’t have to leave.  So thats a good thing!!  I went 25 minutes today and 25 minutes yesterday.  I still have my bruised joint on my foot, so it burns for a while but I’m still doing it!

My daughter has another appt with the orthopedic in the morning.  He may recast her, since the break isn’t lining up that good.  He is going to re-xray then take it from there.  I’m praying that it will look good and he won’t have to do anything more, he said something about externally manipulating the bones, ugh, sounds horrible.  I hope she doesn’t have to do that (she’s 3 and broke her arm 1 week ago).  Otherwise she is doing great, she is back in preschool and feeling good, so finally its been getting back into routine.

My eating has been a lot better lately.  I was getting into the emotional eating trap and the mindless eating (stuffing everything in there!).  I haven’t weighed myself, I did a few days ago and I was only up about 1.5 lbs so thats not bad.  I’ll check again after a few more days of staying on plan and exercising my butt off.

I had 2 great compliments this week.  I wrote a check and the cashier had to do a double, then triple take of my dl pic and me.  I was about 230 in that pic, so I didn’t think it was that much different but she said “is this really you?”.  OMG  that boosted my ego!  Then I ran into a friend I haven’t seen in a few months at Target and she said that she almost didn’t recognize me!!  So I didn’t buy that chocolate bar after that (I was thinking about it!).  Once I give up sweets for about 2 days then I don’t crave them like I do when I try to eat them in moderation.  I do eat fudgesicles sometimes, but they might trigger me to really eat something thats not good for me.  Its a fine line for me, I can’t treat myself most of the time since then it turns into a weeklong food fest.  I have to cut it off short!

I had a flat tire yesterday, so the black cloud is still over my house!!!  LOL  Lets hope it floats away soon!!!!

Ugh I’m such a food addict, I hate it.  Its been a little stressfull here with a 3 year old with a cast.  She’s still wanting to be a daredevil, she was standing on top of the entertainment center (OMG!), then on top of the coffee table.  She was trying to jump on top of daddy to wrestle.  She must be feeling better, but OMG I was going to have  a heart attack!!!  So I am recovering from a bad cold, finally able to breathe and I have my bad foot with the bruised joint.  SO anyway, I haven’t been able to get to the gym because of all of this and my food has been CRAP.  I am getting into the sugar routine again, I even bought some ice cream bars, sugar free but it still tastes like sugar so it must be sugar!!!  I have to gain back my control, but right now I am just trying to survive and thats justabout all I can do right now.  Soon my life will get back to normal and I can get back into my routine, can’t wait.  I don’t want to gain 1 more lb.

Well I am stressed and eating, so I am not eating any more this evening (ok I already ate an ice cream bar!).  But honestly, its always going to be there, the part in my brain that wants to overeat.  I just have to talk myself out of it.  SOmetimes I win, sometimes I lose.  Today is a losing day, but I am still a winner.

What a week it has been, but there’s more to the story now.  My 3 year old daughter fell down the stairs yesterday, she cried for a long time and I wasn’t sure what happened.  We decided to take her to the immediate care since she wasn’t wanting to move her left arm.  After xrays, they confirmed that she fractured her left forearm in 2 places (1x in each of the bones).  So we had to go to the emergency room and have a temp cast placed.  In a few days we will see the dr to put the regular cast on.  She is very pitiful, which I can imagine.  We let her sleep with us, I was too worried to let her sleep in her bed by herself.  The cast is down to her wrist and up to her bicep.  I was trying to not cry when they delivered the horrible news, but I did and my dear son said “mom why are you crying?” and then I cried even more.  What horrible news to have to call people about, but I called my mom and she was crying.  I’m just praising God that its a clean fracture, nothing needs to be reset so it should heal up nicely.  The hardest thing is going to be to not let her play in water, thats her favorite thing!

Well just had to give an update, love you all.  Send your prayers this way!

AAHH Things are finally starting to wind down.  This past 1 1/2 weeks was perhaps the most stressfull in a long long time.  We had construction, my husband moving his office home, problems with the phone number transfer (ugh!), sick children, evicting our renters, (now the house is trashed!), ceiling fan crashing down on top of our coffee table (thank God the kids were not under it!), dog pooping on the floor, $700 brake job on my car, and while all of this was going on my parents were staying with us for 10 days.  Whew!!!

So anyway things are getting better, the house is finally vacant (the rental), its trashed, the people who rented it seemed nice but never paid on time.  Then they didn’t pay at all last month so we evicted them.  They ditched the court date and decided to move out the morning of the court date.  Hmmm have they done this before??  i think so!!  So after talking to the neighbors, we found out that they were local tyrants, harassing the neighbors, breaking into their garages, stealing things, threatening to kill people (one of the friends had a gun!), being arrested 2x, scaring the 80 year old neighbor who had stage 4 cancer to where she was scared for her life.  I couldnt believe what I was hearing.  We felt terrible that this happened, I felt so bad for the neighbors.  So now the house is a big mess, we are having a hauling company come on MOnday morning to haul away their junk that was left (I don’t have time to do it!).  So at least those people are out of our lives.  We are going to sue them, they owe rent for 3 months and damages, so we are documenting everything.

My hubby is moved into our office, but with phone problems his fax is being transferred into ourhome phone, so right now I’m living on my cell phone.  DOn’t like that!!!  But this move is saving us a lot of money and I think its a positive thing.

My eating this past week has been terrible to say the least.  I went out a lot with my mom, so I’m in tha habit now of mindless eating.  My goal for tomorrow is to write down my food again and be aware of what is being put into my mouth.

I also went to the podiatrist this week, my foot was killing me after 5 minutes on the elliptical machine.  I bruiesed a joint in the ball of my foot, so she gave me some medicine and told me to put biofreeze on it nightly.  She thought I should wait a little bit to exercise for too long, hmmpfh!!  Never thought I would be mad about NOT being able to exercise.  Go figure, I guess you can teach an old dog some new tricks!!!  I will try some activity tomorrow, especially since I am trying to not eat my way into 200.  Ok I’m not that out of control, but I can’t tolerate mindless eating for that long at all.  Thats how I got to 300!!!

So I’m writing this late, I’m tired, but I had to check in.  Now you know why I haven’t been on here, but its going up the slope now instead of down.  I posted new pics, my mom took some of me and I was shocked that was me!!!  She is so proud of me, and I just love her to pieces!!  She said it was a pleasure to take some pics of me, how fun!!!